Letter To My Future Self

To:
Claude-Shima in the future
in here daily busy life

Hi girl, do you still remember about me?

Do I look stupid now? Absolutely, you've learned much more in the last ten years, you've travelled the world, adapted other cultures, and read thousands books. Pretty sure you are rich now, rich in knowledge. But remember the goal of our live is not only being knowlegeable, is it? There's a sky upon a sky, so keep istiqamah running in your path, girl!

We're not growing apart, keep unite and together as one. If you want me to talk to, just send me a letter so I could understand what you feel. About the time we never forget, about sweet and bitterness of life we did fight, about memory in USA, and about the teenage Shima that you hold so dear... I always have a time for you.

I ever expected you'd be a lecture or enterpreneur, but that's not really a matter if you couldn't reach what I wanna be. Future always change as well as dream, you would never know untill you see. And, you don't have to tell me what you have been cause I will be more appreciated if you don't tell me what you are. ALLOH always know the best for me, well for us.... I mean.

Are you married? Engaged?

Hm, just want to remain you that teenage Shima wanted you to marry as sharia said. Having three children and be a good wife. That's all, yeah thank you for that! I'm satisfied now!

Well, I still have school now... I don't think about what my marriage will be like what, just expecting everything definitely will be okay. O yeah, have you covered your body with hijab and wore abaya? I hope ya have. Lemme tell you,-well, remain you (again) I guess, bout your promise to be an Islamic activist in your college and your wish to be a chairwoman of Islamic organization. You must do it, ukhtee! Don't be secular, knowledge that you got must be usefull for your religion. Would be nice to see you in a perfect Islamic clothes, in Asian personality, but with Western brave and ability. LOL!!! Hohohohooh.... (Oops!)

You are unique! You combined two differents wisdom and culture, you absorbed them all and plant it deep in your heart. Creating a new philosophy for the world through cross-cultural understanding. I'm sure you an controll them, our body will be their home forever and for always... We'll tell it to our children so then those things will not disappear, then our children will tell it to their children continuously.... Over and over again!

So, continue your life as ordinary... It will be long cold winter in me... Waiting and waiting... 'Till I find my self in you...

LOVE,

Your past

Claude-Shima